This is my very first ever blog posting! A lot of my friends have blogs and I figure it's time I get one of my very own. There are several reasons that I want to have a blog ... 1) So that I can share some of the chaos that goes with being a full time working mother 2) I need some sort of outlet - something to let me express my thoughts - something that does not disagree or argue with me - something that just let's me vent 3) I want to create a diary of my thoughts, ideas and day to day events so that in 20 years my kids can go back and see all the things that took place to make me the mother I am 20 years from now - this could be a good thing or a bad thing but it will be my thing - my families thing and it will be memories - the good the bad and the ugly.

I want to use my first posting to catch up on my life over the last year. Don't worry - I'll use cliff notes :-)

We started out last year like we did every year for the previous 10 years of our life - trying to have a baby. We made the big decision to do In-Vitro. It was a lot more than what we expected - both financially, emotionally & physically. The first time it didn't work. That was Jan 2006. Then we found out something was wrong with my gallbladder so we had it removed in Feb 2006. Then we tried again in March and it worked!!! We were so excited we told everyone right away. Then we found out we were having twins! And again we told everyone right away. Then we found out that we may have another baby but it's ectopic and we had to do surgery to remove it. In April we did the surgery and lost one of the twins. We don't think it was because of the surgery but we still had one healthy baby and that's what mattered to us! After 10 years of Infertility it was finally going to happen for us! Another child. Our son Adam was born 5 weeks early due but was healthy and we just couldn't have been happier!

There were a lot of adjustments that needed to made. This little man was invading on his 11 year old sister. For 11 years Ashleigh has been an only child. The only niece. The only grandchild. The only great grandchild. Ashleigh is a great kid (pre-teen as she reminds us all the time). She does well in school, helps around the house and has an all around good attitude. Needless to say, the cuteness of our little addition wore out very early on. Ashleigh didn't really want to have much to do with Adam at first but as time has evolved and she's realized he's not going anywhere - she has come around. She is the best big sister anyone could ever ask for. She feeds him, changed diapers and helps out around the house ever more than before! He adores her and his little face lights up every time she enters the room! She wont' admit it her face lights up too :-)

So newborn stuff day after day through Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year's and now here we are ... Adam is 2 months old and the time has come for me to return to work. I went back to work 3 weeks ago but I've had help. I worked from home the first week, my sister came and stayed with me for a week and then my mom came for a week. Now everyone has gone back to their lives and I am here in mine doing the best I can everyday to take care of my family like a stay at home mom while working 40-50 hours a week as a Purchasing Manager for a big Corporation downtown, which by the way is a 50 miles commute one-way.

So my hope for this blog is that an ounce of sanity can survive within me each day so that I can take time to re-cap what I did, what I will do and who I think I am each day. As I look at my postings I hope I will see the mother that I am each day and as time goes by I can look back and see the things that took place to make me the mother that I've become.

So that's where I am at ... my life ... I love my life ... I love my job, my kids, my husband, my house and my life!

Now that being said - today was suppose to be little Adam's first day of daycare. However, he is sick and instead of taking him to daycare he went to the doctor. Where I was told he had a cold and there isn't anything they can do for him. But if he's not better I can bring him back tomorrow and they can look at him again ??? Why would I bring him back in tomorrow - subjecting him to even more germs and who knows what that is lingering in the air at the doctor's office - so that they can tell me he has a cold and there is nothing they can do about. Or worse yet - if I bring him back tomorrow and they CAN do something about it then I am mad because if there was something to be done - why couldn't they do it today! Bottom line is some times doctors tell you what they think you want to hear to make you feel better when really in the back of their minds they are thinking I am crazy for taking my baby to the doctor because he has a little snot in his nose. But if it wasn't for paranoid mothers like me the doctors wouldn't be golfing at the Country Club 3 times a week and sending their kids to Harvard.

So this is it - this is how I am starting my blog. I've caught up to where I am at today - it's a brief catch up but it's to the point. Today is a Monday and on Monday's Ashleigh has gymnastics. I drop her off at 7 and Travis works late and picks her up at 8. This is by far the longest day of my week so I never look forward to it. Ashleigh is at the age where she doesn't want us hanging around and watching her so it's basically 40 minutes of my time to drive her there - drop her off - and drive back home. Now we've thrown a baby into that mix so it's more like an hour. By the time I get home and get the baby unloaded, bathed and ready for bed then Travis (my husband) and Ashleigh are home and it's time to get them something to eat. This after being up all night with baby, going to work at 5:30 AM, working 8 hours, sitting in an hour of traffic, helping with homework, solving the pre-teen drama of the day (more of that to come in future blogs I am sure) doing two loads of laundry, cleaning the house and getting everything ready for the next day ... just another Monday :-)

And now as I sit in what was my moment of peace ... the baby is crying on the baby monitor and I am getting the evil eye from the big one because she wants to read me something she found on the Internet but I told her I needed a minute to finish my posting ... but you know what I do feel better! I feel like someone listened to me without wanting something in return and without spitting up on me and I feel good! I hoped I would and I do so my mission is accomplished and I will now blog as much as I can or as much as my life allows :-)